High Anxxxxxxiety
Sunday, April 17, 2011 at 7:13PM My son got accepted to some very nice Grad Schools in their PhD programs, which makes me extremely proud. They are all far away. I don't fly.
No...I don't.
You can't make me.
He accepted admission at the University of Nebraska at Lincoln. Hmmmm...can't walk there. Can I drive there with my husband? Sure. Do I want to do that? No. Why not? No. Just No. 
Can I take Amtrak? Yes, this is a possibility but it takes 2 days!
Now, the choices are easy. Fly? No. Drive with husband? No. Amtrak? Tooo loooong. Other options? Look at the school, the town, and the apartment on the internet and send him off on the big bird that I won't get on. Two and a half hours later, he is there.
Will I visit him over the years? Sure, when he flies back home. Hey, there's always skype.
Anxiety is a very bad thing, but as you get older, you really don't give a damn. It's really kind of easy. I don't want to. I won't. You can't make me.
Now, I am also thinking about him meeting a nice girl all the way over there in Nebraska, getting married and having children. My grandchildren. How do grandchildren look on skype?
not so good.
The other issue....isn't that tornado alley? oy
Well, its my job to worry...even if I will have to worry through skype. Virtual worry. Wow. Technology is amazing.
Barbara
Reader Comments (3)
awww, c'mon Barb: "Where there's a will there's a way." White-knuckle experiences are fun (underlined)---look at all the people on those upside-down roller coaster rides---they don't let a little thing like fright deter them. Bet you really can get on that airplane------how about unconscious, on a stretcher? Have you asked? 2 or 3 hours on a plane is alot quicker than 2 days on a train for sure.
And drive with zee husband? Have you heard of prozac? blind-folds? earplugs & masking tape? Prayer? Or maybe it would be easier to knock you out and let you travel along in the back seat of the car---instead of on the stretcher in the airplane.
YES. You can do this! Sons need their mothers checking things out firsthand. i am suuuuurrre you are going to get yourself physically out there. Our Fearless Founder has never let anything stop her following her heart. Keep us posted on the Solution!
Lois......I don't fly....I won't .....you can't make me. But I still love you.
I will not ride for 2 days with Frank.....I won't....you can't make me.
"Perfect love casteth out fear" n'est pas? You can do this, Barb---i know you can. Deep breath......relaxing....breathe in....and out.....image green pastures...the birds are singing....all is well......your insides are calm and quiet........Barbara is traveling (in plane, in car) ....enjoying the sights and scenery....you are perfectly relaxed and thoroughly enjoying your husband's excellent driving skills....and soon you are pulling into the dorm parking lot......
See? Easy as pie. I KNOW YOU CAN DO THIS! Nebraska beckons; your son needs you. Repeat after me: "I can do this; i can do this"
(other possibilities: grow your own wings. Magic carpet. Astral projection )